Thursday, July 17, 2008

Anniversary Part I

Today is the day. Exactly one year ago today I was sent into exile. After going through hell for most of the year, the last few months have been a period of relative calm for me. It began when I asked myself this question: How do I get back to the mindset I had before I met Katherine? Trying to ignore the last 11 years of my life is no simple task, let me assure you. I finally realized that over time, little by little, Katherine was trying to change me. Whether that it was a conscious effort on her part or that she thought I would come around to her way of thinking eventually, in the end, it never worked. We were never compatible; a complete mistake from the start. I don't really blame her. She is who she is and my fear of loneliness allowed me to put up with it, but eventually it broke me and I lost myself. So during this past year I started to catalog all the negative feelings that have built up within me, I analyzed each one, determined the root of the problem, and... I stopped caring about them. It was as simple as that. I know who I am again, and I'm ok with it, but letting go was just the start...

Keep Going

"The meaning of life is simple, you live it. How you live your life, that's where the problems start."

Thus Spoke Archonoclast