The Act of Being

Dirty Little Secret

2009-03-18T02:54:00.002-04:00

Your smell,
Your taste,
Your moves,
The way you feel,
Is it the way you make me feel?
Your body inspires me to new highs...
It's never been like this before,
No, it's your heart I crave the most.

Parting

2009-02-07T03:17:00.001-05:00

"I know you don't want to leave, that's why it makes it okay when you do."

Thus Spoke Archonoclast

Anniversary Part I

2008-07-17T14:08:00.004-04:00

Today is the day. Exactly one year ago today I was sent into exile. After going through hell for most of the year, the last few months have been a period of relative calm for me. It began when I asked myself this question: How do I get back to the mindset I had before I met Katherine? Trying to ignore the last 11 years of my life is no simple task, let me assure you. I finally realized that over time, little by little, Katherine was trying to change me. Whether that it was a conscious effort on her part or that she thought I would come around to her way of thinking eventually, in the end, it never worked. We were never compatible; a complete mistake from the start. I don't really blame her. She is who she is and my fear of loneliness allowed me to put up with it, but eventually it broke me and I lost myself. So during this past year I started to catalog all the negative feelings that have built up within me, I analyzed each one, determined the root of the problem, and... I stopped caring about them. It was as simple as that. I know who I am again, and I'm ok with it, but letting go was just the start...

Keep Going

2008-07-17T03:19:00.002-04:00

"The meaning of life is simple, you live it. How you live your life, that's where the problems start."

Thus Spoke Archonoclast

Wait For It

2008-05-07T03:36:00.003-04:00

Truth. Name one, and I can think of several different ways to invalidate it. Truth is elusive. Just when you have one figured out, a dozen new ones pop up around the corner to fuck with you.

Thus Spoke Archonoclast

Beginnings

2008-05-04T07:30:00.001-04:00

What a difference a day makes...

Sunday, Bloody Sunday

2008-03-23T20:19:00.002-04:00

It's a good thing that physical travel back through time is impossible. The world's history would be a lot bloodier than it currently stands.

It's All Heather's Fault

2008-03-18T20:20:00.001-04:00

My friend is crazy.

Thus Spoke Archonoclast

Enneagram Piecharts

2008-03-16T03:16:00.005-04:00

So I finally decided to take a few Enneagram tests, and I found out that the results are pretty accurate in describing my person. I'm a 4 with three equal wings of 2, 6, & 7. I guess it's normal to have wings that are numerically adjacent, but none of mine are. It figures. I'm abnormal (but we all knew that anyway). I actually tested badly with 1's, 3's & 5's. That's pretty funny because I'd view my ex-wife as a 1 with wings of 3 & 5. That's a definite hit too as we never could see eye to eye on anything. Here's some nifty piecharts of my results:

Pre-School Philosopher

2008-01-28T12:45:00.000-05:00

My 5 year old daughter had a question yesterday. In a serious tone she asked, "Daddy, if everyone in world stopped believing in the world, would the world still exist?" Taken by surprise of the deepness of the question, I thought about it and replied, "I like your way of thinking, what do you think?" She simply stated, "I think the world wouldn't exist anymore." With a proud smile on my face I responded, "I think you're right."

Simple Teachings

2007-12-18T02:52:00.000-05:00

If you wish others to know about your good deeds,
they are not truly good deeds.
If you fear others will find out about your bad deeds,
those are truly bad deeds.

Master Hsuan Hua

Self-Inflicted

2007-10-30T04:30:00.000-04:00

"Knowledge is a double edged sword, and I've impaled myself with it."

Thus Spoke Archonoclast

Memories...

2006-04-10T23:53:00.000-04:00

“In the grand scheme of things, it’s not so much what you’ve done that’s important, but rather in who it is that remembers you doing it.”

Thus Spoke Archonoclast